Could you give me some feedback on a poem i wrote ?

‘ Suicide Saviour’

Him in mind, my feet on the edge,jumping into my one good friend,the ocean the one thing that never ends. My heart stopping,no good thoughts, the end is closer than we thought. I try to reason with my made up mind, it wins everytime. Clouds are gathering up above, im going to die in the rain. Ive directed my own horror film, it’s become a reality and no one can save me yet i’ve been wrong before. I hear a voice, the angels are calling my name, suddenly things are going to be ok. I lean foward, i feel i can fly and neglect to open my eyes. Is this what dying feels like, grass still between my toes, i feel i havent left, the sea air still on my nose. My arms are tight as if someones grabbing on, i felt no pain did something go wrong? Am i still falling or am i really dead, i open my eyes to check. I can still see the light house, hear the birds over head,it’s still raining, i never left. Something pulls me backward away from the edge, i can smell cologne surely im not dead. Arm’s tightly round me, again that angelic voice. You sit there crying, still holding tight, protesting against my choice. A minuite to you, a second to me, time flies when it’s over, you fly when your me. My eyes burst out like the waves in the sea, i look at you, you look at me. Have i been saved or my agaony prolonged? All my life i have wronged. What could you possibly see in someone as dead as me? In my eyes it was all over but now it’s just begun, time passed by we continued to cry. You blame it on yourself, no one else, we know you’ve got it all wrong. You were the only thing that kept me going but that could be seen as a negative to some, at times including me. For that second i had shown no regret, i would have jumped if not for you being the angel that would guide me through. I know i needed help as did you, i should have listened especially to you. I had been given a second chance, i have been claimed but not by the sea, no after life, no reincarnation of me, but by you my darling… the light of my night… love of my life… THANK YOU -x-