Having a really hard time at home what do I do?

This sounds like what I went through at home. I would recomend talking to someone like another relative or if you go to church, talk to someone from there. I know what’s like to want to die myself. I would also recomend moving out and living somewhere else if possible. I don’t know what’s going on with you at home that’s making you not to want to live there anymore but, if its your parenst, you need to move out. I’m recently going through troubles in my lifetime but, since I don’t live at home, and I know what’s like to live at home and put up with parents and siblings who don’t treat you right. (When living at home, you don’t feel welcomed there anymore and, you feel like comitting suicide). I’ve been there done that. If you feel that way, seek help right away. I know when I was adopted from China, things for me were alright at first until I grew older. As I grew older myself, I was mistreated and at 17 I wanted to commit suicide and up to this day, I just recently reverted back because I recently placed a PPO against my father for touching, fondling, and so forth. I don’t know if your having simmular problems but, you need to find people that’ll love you and give you support. Now, my support is my church since I’m LDS/Mormon and, when I finally was able to tell my suicidal thoughts about my family even though I don’t live at home, I pretty much scared a couple people I love in church. I know that I really scared my LDS Branch President. I just thought I’d share my story with you. As far as your home invirement, it sounds like your going through simmular treatments with your family and they probably don’t make you feel welcomed either. So, please, move out if you can, and seek help. Hope I could help. Oh, by the way, your in my prayers and, see if your church can support you in these kinds of situations.