I let my daugh. go (part 2)

I let my daugh. go live with her dad when she was 10 years old. She was having a bad time here at my home because of my husband. Things were really ugly. It has been three years now and she told me she doesn’t want me to be a part of her life and that she is better off without me. I don’t know what to do. I really miss her.

At the time my other two children were 1 and 5. They still live with me. I had visitation with my oldest daughter from another marriage. When she would come to visit, she would want to go spend the night at her friend’s house. I let her. It got to the point where she didn’t want to come to spend time at my house at all and I didn’t force her too.

I am a stay at home mom. My husband doesn’t want me to go back to school or work. I am on disability right now, but thought about going back to collge. I was a senior in nursing school, when I took some time off because of the divorce between my oldest daugh. dad and me. I feel like going back to school sometime but my husband said if I do, he will find another mother for the kids. I feel really trapped sometimes. My middle daugh. won’t go to sleep at night unless her dad is at home. He works a lot of nights and when we were separated before it was an issue. Any advice is welcome. I just wonder if I leave my husband and take the two children, will my oldest daugh. eventually want to have another relationship with me, especially if I go back to college, finish, and work in nursing and make a decent income to support us all.