What do you think?

I’m chatting and playing around with friends. Just like I would normally do, I glance towards you every now and then. Within the short moment of looking at you, all my problems disappear, and all that is left in my mind is you. Every time, I have to force myself to tear my eyes away. Your body is like a beautifully thin yet impenetrable veil just casually laid over your soul so elegantly. I have no chance, or so I think to myself. The way I’m thinking, the way I’m feeling and the way I’m craving is not the way I am usually. I need to place a mask on myself. I need to protect myself. The idea of you finding out and then the obvious rejection that would follow- I just can’t bring myself to allow such a thing. Just before I drag my eyes away once again, I see you glimpse towards me. My heart misses a beat. What if you think I’m staring? What if you realise the truth? I take another look at you to see your reaction. You are still looking my way. You smile. My heart slows - or melts - I’m not sure which… maybe both. We continue on. We talk and laugh. Play around. We get closer. Our hands accidently touch. I go to move away but you don’t move at all. I look into your eyes. I finally realise what it is that lies within; it’s understanding. But it’s different to what I thought would happen. There’s no pending rejection. Just acceptance. Finally, as our hands touch and close around each other, my heart feels at total ease with nothing left to fear. The heat of her hand feels so real and comforting. We just stare into our eyes. And then a fear grows again. Something’s wrong. What’s this sensation? The surroundings start to turn to shadows. I take one last look at what I want more than anything else, and then it was no more. All that was left was a few strange sounds, a strange pressure on my left half of my body and my sight filled with blackness. I open my eyes. I’m lying on my bed, in my bedroom. The realisation hits. My mind finally catches up to the tears that were already flowing. How could my mind be so cruel.

What ya think? No flaming please.