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Why won't my girlfriend be physical with me?

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I'm not expecting a specific answer to this, I more or less have a situation to present you with, and any feedback on it would be great. I think I just need a little insight, and I'm curious as to what advice there is to be given in this respect.

Here's my situation:

I've been dating this girl for 11 months now and we're both very in love, we are both 20 years old. We are making plans to live together this summer and we're both very excited about it.

We see each other everyday, we just can't go a day without seeing one another. My problem is that my girlfriend has major problems being physical with me and she knows this. She has had other boyfriends in the past and she's told me way too much information lol, things like. And I quote, "I used to have sex all the time with so and so." And I've told her how this makes me feel, knowing this about her past when she says she's so in love with me but can't express it whatsoever. We had sex a few times at the start of our relationship and she told me it was amazing and wanted to again and again, then she talked to me about it and said she didn't want to anymore over fear of getting pregnant...again just confused me because of her past.

This was totally fine with me because I respect her so much and I want to do what's right by her, so not having sex was fine with me. And it still is (we haven't had sex in about 6 months). But she won't even be physical with me in any respect, I try to get things going with her but she never wants to even make out with me.

Just recently she was in the mood to do stuff so we started doing whatever than like a minute or two later she turned her back to me and didn't say anything. I asked her what's wrong, she said "nothing" and I told her I loved her, she said it back. Then I asked her if she was sure she loved me and she asked me why I would say such a thing, than I explained to her how I felt about knowing these things in her past meanwhile having no physical happenings with us, and she said she understands how I feel. We went to sleep and she said she was sorry in the morning, she said she's mad with herself over this inability of hers to express herself with me. She says she loves me more than anyone she ever has ever loved before, and I believe her, but why such this big problem to be physical, when clearly we've broken the ice before.

She sleeps over at my house 4-5 nights a week, yet we may only be physical with each other like two times a month. She hates it when I'm the initiator, so I feel like I'm waiting around for her to make a move. Every time I make a move it ends with her turning her back to me because I guess she's either embarrassed or mad at herself for whatever reason, and I've tried everything I can think of, she just doesn't like it when I try to initiate things. Which sucks because she never initiates anything.

I know it's not an attraction thing, we've been over that too. She doesn't even know what's up with it herself, she gets mad at herself over this. I've encouraged her to masturbate when she's not with me because I figure it might help her get in the mood when she's with me. I told her to try and go through with it herself even if she doesn't want to, to just try. She told me the other day she tried this but she said she can't even do it when she's by herself.

My sex drive compared to hers is just astronomical, I will be in the mood to do stuff with her like every night and I hate to say it but I get an erection even when she rests her head on my shoulder and puts her arms around me, but every time I have to resist to not do anything about it, I find myself having to masturbate when she falls asleep or if it's really bad I go to the bathroom because I can't stand the tension of wanting to, but knowing neither of us will receive anything.

We get along so well and we just click, we never have arguments, we have the same beliefs and opinions about every thing. We always have fun when we see each other and experience tons and tons of laughter together. Every aspect of our relationship is absolutely amazing and perfect in every way..except for this one problem we have.

I've never made a big scene about it with her, but she does know how I feel. I've made that clear, and she understands. I understand and respect completely her not wanting to have sex and she really appreciates that. --I've told her we will go on the pill for a full month before we have sex again and use condoms (this came up after she said she wished we could bang and she said, "we'll see").

I just don't understand how a 20 year old girl so madly in love with me, can have such a huge problem being the least bit physical with me (considering we already had sex several times), when I know for a fact she used to have sex all the time (her words).

p.s. sorry for just a long post and thanks for reading, any feedback would be greatly appreciated.