Who can I talk to. I need someone to talk to who knows about MS.?

or 6 years ago my mom was diagnose with MS and Parkinson’s. Some days she’s fine some days she’s weird. She Is also scared of lint she hates to see it and hates to touch it. If my mom sees lint on the floor she will clean the floor for 3 to 5 hours sometimes even more. she also fixes her bed covers over 100 times. sometimes she the best MOM in the world sometimes I just wish she would freaking DIE. me and my dad call it episodes cause it comes an goes. when she is in a episode she is awesome!! we can have fun, laugh, giggle , anything! but today she’s in a episode she cant even freaking talk right I hate that!! cause I have scream everything to her then she doesn’t know how to say stuff right… and she takes about 4 hours in the bath room cleaning up lint.. I wish she would just die sometimes. I cant handle this anymore!! I love you to death but whatever she has is controlling her body. I just wish I had my REAL mom back the one who wasn’t scared of lint or anything =’(. sometimes I wish I was dead my self so I wouldn’t have to see her go through this stuff. please help or please talk to me… if you understand what im going through. by the way sometimes she will shake and cant stand up. has to use a cane or her walker… :( I just want my mom to be better but I dont want to see her in a mental hospital because she is better than that. since she’s sick and other stuff that I don’t want to say on here. Please I need someone to funmail me.