What should I do? My life is hell.

I’m thirteen years old and live with my family. We all used to be kinda close but ever since last year everything has fallen apart. My mom is very cruel and spiteful and VERY naggy.

I’ve had issues with my weight for a while – I’m defiantly not fat but I’m larger then most girls, well not even that it’s just I’m not the average toothpick of a girl you usually see. My mom is obsessed with getting me to eat protein, to the point where I’m not allowed to eat sandwiches because they have bread on them.

She favors my younger brother over me.

I think I’m growing depressed, I hate it here. Not only is my mother cruel, she always yells at my dad because of one night, out of the entire week, he didn’t do the dishes. But somehow, he loves her – I don’t understand how that could be possible.

She wants to be involved in my life and issues with friends so much, to the point where I actual fear that people may be disliking me because of her.

My mom also has a hard time letting go. In April, I made a stupid comment and she refuses to let it go – to the point where I feel like crying. She also made fun of me today because I made a comment about the “popo” in front of a police officer, who I was not aware was standing behind me.

She’s also obsessed with perfection. Last year, I brought home an 80 on a test and I got screamed out and grounded for it – only because it wasn’t a 100. I am very smart but my mom doesn’t understand that everyone makes mistake and that I can’t always be perfect. I feel so neglected by her, that I have thoughts of gulp suicide and running away (though, I realize suicide is stupid I still think if she would miss me if I died), I’m leaning more towards running away, though.

I don’t know how much longer I can take living here – on top of all of this, I’m also pre-menstrual, so I’m already highly iratible.

Please help me, before I do something I could regret.