What if i could have done something to stop his death?

Nobody can really understand how or why somebody suffered so much during their life that they prefer to kill themselves.

Your best friend suffered for as long as he could, and you made his life worth living just a little bit longer by convincing him a few times that it was worth trying to cope with his difficulties no matter how insurmountable they might have seemed to be.

It got to the point where he knew he could take it no longer, and knew that if he called you again you might convince him to prolong his suffering yet again.

Be thankful that he is now resting in peace and that you got close enough to make his life be bearable for a bit longer than it would have been without you.

† Lord now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace. †

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– My thoughts are with you - Majikthise.

All of those are normal and they’re ok to feel. It is ok to feel angry. He left you. You now have to figure out how to live without him. You have to figure out how to deal with feeling like you could have done more. Anger is perfectly normal. Dont let anyone tell you otherwise. Anger happens even in situations where the person died in an accident or died of a sickness. Try not to feel too bad about being angry. You know he was in pain, and you know that he was tired of being in pain. And one day you will be at peace with the fact he is gone. But for now, allow yourself to grieve. There’s no skipping the process. One day it won’t hurt as much. It will never be ok he is gone, but you will figure out how to live with it. One day you may start helping others in a similar situation. But those days will come when they come. Today, you’re in pain, and none of it makes sense. And that’s ok. Deal with the days one at a time. You will be ok. And you should talk to someone about how you feel. Someone who wont judge you for those feelings. Or try to make it better instantly, there’s no fix it solution for grief.