Should I be free?

Hi everyone, I’m needing some advice funnily enough!

I’m 20 years old, and female. I’ve only ever slept with 3 guys in my life, 2 of which were/are long term boyfriends, and the other a mistake that ruined my first relationship.

I have a boyfriend now who I love, have been with for 1 year and 7 months and he’s really great, but smokes a lot of weed which has to be my only real criticism.

I met him through this friend, lets call him ‘mr X’, who I’ve known ever since school and who I have always felt a strong attraction and feelings for. The thing about this mr X is that he likes me too, always has. He is my ideal, dark hair, tall, very good looking…and I get butterflys in my chest when I think about him. We are very good friends. Life has just been cruel to us, when I’ve been single he was always taken and I couldn’t touch him. The years go by and eventually, he introduced me to my current boyfriend who I live with now, and who I love. And guess what, low and behold, mr X becomes single.

The point is, without dragging it on for too much longer, I feel trapped. I love my boyfriend very much, but I am so jealous of all my friends and other people enjoying their youth and just having fun. My boyfriend has been talking about wanting to buy a place with me, and I feel like a bird getting her wings clipped too soon. I’m too scared to tell him this, and to tell him that I also and have always felt strong feelings for mr X. My boyfriends family and everything are so nice as well, I feel like im being really selfish just thinking about this.

My boyfriend is 28 and I feel like he has lived life so much more than I have. I just want to be free. Whenever I see mr X I want to kiss him, all these feelings have been alive for 4 years with him and now that he is single, I just wish I could jump on him…but oh God, im just so confused. I love my boyfriend, he loves me…mr X loves me…

My last relationship didnt end very well, as I cheated on him with the guy that Im with now, so I never became single…I havent been single in 3 years. Im only 20!!

Am I being selfish? Should I just give into my desires like everyone else? Is this sudden burst of wishing for freedom just because of mr X becoming available?

What the hell should I do?

Answer #1

well my advice is you should go with mr.x lol I think he’d b better especally if your thinking about gettin really serious && having children you know weed lowers your sperm counts so if he does it a lot its not good but yea soo good luck

Answer #2

I would tell him you need a little breathing room and want to take a break to experience life as much as he has.. if he really loves you he will understand and still be there for you. but if you are trying to “be free” to be able to kiss mr. X then I would tell him that is the reason why as well! Be honest about it, you don’t want your current boyfriend to find out later on that you are macking on another guy right after you broke up with him, so I would let him know how you are feeling and hope for the best!

Answer #3

Dear secretsst, Your boyfriend you have now is heading for disaster. Someone who smokes that much will be dragging you down. If you plan on marrying him some day you would risk your children’s health starting even before birth. Besides this, you are not ready to settle with him…you know you aren’t ready or you wouldn’t be here asking…so time to be fair to him and yourself. Give him a chance to find someone who feels for him the way you feel for this other guy. Give yourself a chance and stop dating anyone for a while and have the fun you need to have now. Later in life you will regret it. Sue…good luck

Answer #4

If you stay with him these feeling are just going to build up more and more till you cant take it or it’s too late. Plus the way you are talking about this mr. X may lead to unfaithfulness with your current partner if you don’t make up your mind, you need to make a decision about who would be better for you in the long end

Answer #5

just go for it because you dont wana look back and wish you had gotten with him an just wonder what it be like life is short so just live it up

Answer #6

lol dont listen to what people tell u, its all misleading information you need to do your own research and see for urself

These are some of the comments I have copied from a forum

-pharmaceuticals are known to kill more people than illegal drugs

-marijuana is the number 1 cash crop in the world it serves as a natural medicine and has many other uses thats why they prohibited it so big companies can make more profit thanks to “bad journalism”

-can also help aids patients, aids diminishes appetite have them smoke a joint and they regain their appetite counteracting the illness

-no one can die from smoking cannabis and has been no known deaths compared to everything else including alcohol, tobacco, etc..

I myself have asthma and smoking opens up my airways making it easier to breathe with no side effects when medically legalized in my state I look foward to becoming a patient for prescription marijuana. 12 states have already legalized it along with other countries in the world and more following my job is to educate people that are not aware of the plants uses


-I did most of my research through websites, books, magazines, and the news high times magazine etc..

  • theres more to it than just getting high and I believe legalizing it would make this a better world to live in

-God bless the whole crop!

  • and for people that dont smoke, you dont need to smoke it to support it

-all the better reason for the government to legalize.. couple reasons why it should be legalized: -will be removed from black market and stop empowering gang members -medical reasons -would be sold like alcohol, remember alcohol was once prohibited too (in stores away from children, have to be 21+) -would be a law that you cant drive while intoxicated on weed -prison population would lower (prisons are overcrowding with nonviolent offenders) -keep patients from being convicted -would provide millions of jobs for people -would make us an independent country (fuel, etc.., debt free america)

people with an addiction (including hard drugs) shouldnt be thrown in jail, they need help theres more people in jail with mental illnesses than there are in mental institutions

the list goes on

  • the War on Drugs is a failure, its a war on its own people. policies need to be changed we pay billions in taxpayers money to keep the war going and neither side is winning thats just a waste of our tax money I wonder what they do with all that money.. those greedy bastards just sell drugs back onto the street, you can even check urself on that there was a time when there was a cia operation transporting drugs overseas into america the government also provided Rick Ross with plenty of heroin to go around, course making money from it

the truth must be exposed, theyre dirty work must stop!

-Of course we can do something about it, we all just need to unite screw the federal government remember slavery? if no one stood up im pretty sure it would still be going on people were tortured, beaten, killed and thrown in jail but that didnt stop them standing up for their rights eventually slavery was abolished same with alcohol prohibition eventually became re-legalized

  • its like theres some kind of conspiracy going on I sense the government is up to no good and trying to control us. credit cards, money, and now they have chips that can be implanted in skin for uselful reasons but if in the wrong hands well were pretty much fuct they hiding the truth from us its dangerous to be right when the government is wrong they got theyre privacy but we dont. they want to know everything were doing on our leisure time

get up stand up!

  • marijuanas not anti-establishment because its illegal, its illegal because its anti-establishment

all facts stated have been double-checked and confirmed want to learn more? lets all make this a better place to live in!

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