Obsessive compulsive disorder

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  You sound like you are subconsciously into “self-harm”. It doesn’t matter whether it’s what you do, cutting, or similar things, they are all caused by problems that you have mentally.

They aren’t something you easily have control over. It usually requires intervention by a counselor or therapist to help you see, understand and overcome the problem. I’d seriously recommend that you see a counselor or therapist. Meanwhile I’m listing to sites that may help you understand a little better:

  Information on self injury:

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/self_injury.htm

  Do you WANT to stop cutting? Then check out this site:

http://www.healthyplace.com/Communities/Self_Injury/BloodRed/stop/index.html

  Self Injury help:

SAFE (Self-Abuse Finally Ends) Alternative Information Line 800-DONT-CUT

Well, to the point where your pulling out your own hair and drawing blood, thats pretty serious! Maybe you tell someone you trust like a best friend or someone close to you. Or maybe a doctor they are the people that could help you most. I used to think I had ocd, I thought that if I dont do that then such and such will happen to me or I have to do something or someone will die and I know it sounds really silly. But once I told someone and I knew people understood mei became less obsessed. Telling someone helped me and it could help you aswell! I hope this helps x x x