My Situation...

Well, this girl Kendall and I have been together for a year and 5 months now. For the first two months, it was pretty much just hand jobs and fingering. We broke up for a month and a half and then I had to go on a trip for 3 months to the other side of the country. Soon after getting back, she gave me a blow job and for about 7 months, it was just hand jobs and blow jobs. Then, on the 13th of Febuary of 2009, she and I both lost our virginities to each other. We had sex about 7 times over the last two months and just recently, within the last couple of weeks, she’s decided to no longer do ANYTHING like that because it creates a “barrier” between her and her relationship with Christ. As a christian myself, I was ok with her decision… at first. It was was totally fine for the first week but after awhile, I was starting to lose it. I’ve been having to deal with this and it’s really difficult. She only wants to kiss now and I can’t exactly make out with her and not want to do more. I miss getting at least a hand job from her every once in awhile. She and I both go to school online and spend a lot of time together so it’s hard not to want to have sex. My question to you is, how should I deal with these hormones? I masturbated for 5 years before I started dating her and now that I’m having to resort back to masturbation, It’s making it more difficult to not want to share that with someone. I love the girl too death but I’m having trouble wanting to stay loyal to her or staying with her at all. (sorry about the length, I just wanted you to know the whole story)