My life is falling apart.

So, summer has started and I’m all happy.. Or was. I barely passed and all. So no summer school. And I’m glad I get to be home by myself 2 days a week. But my mom is freaking out and turning into a btch. Because of an unknown reason, she’s taking away my Internet, my phone, my TV, my ps2, my ipod, my friends ((basically)) and my mountain dew sometimes soon and I don’t know what to do. She won’t let me see my friends and is taking away my online friends. But then again my ‘friends’ from school ignored me, so they’re not really friends. And now my mom threatens that she will send me to live with my dad because she can’t deal with the ‘sht’ I’m giving her. And when she told me that today I didn’t understand. If I have no one to talk to here, in Michigan, then I should at least talk to people online that actually like me. And I got picked on in school this year, but my mom didn’t care and nor did anyone else so I put up with it. And my mom makes fun of my laugh and the way I stutter when I talk because I get nervous when talking sometimes. And she yells at me when I talk loud enough so she won’t make fun of the way my voice sounds because she thinks I’m yelling at her. And my mom hates when I talk to her in public because she doesn’t want to be embarrassed. And my mom also hates me because “I won’t come to her for help.” Well, no. I don’t want her help. She’s so cruel to me. And another reason why she hates me is because I “never help her with anything.” Well okay I’m 12. Not 16. I will not say I’m a teen, because I know I’m a child and I’m trying to makes friends online.. And there she goes again.. Making fun of my laugh when I wasn’t even laughing. She torments me constantly. She talks bad about to my dog and to her friends right in front of me. Then she puts food in my hair. I can’t deal with her. Every time she says something mean I start crying now. I can’t yell at her, I’ll get in trouble. Same if I ignore her. She pulled out my head phones and took them and my ipod and gave them to my dog because she felt bad for her having to spend all day with my horrible retarded laugh. I can name very few people that I know don’t hate me and I’ve found myself acting a bit more emo everyday. And I want to kill myself, but I won’t. I’m looking forward to many things in the future that will hopefully happen. And along with the emo thing, I find myself thinking about death and blood and all that stuff more today. And I keep thinking that no one will ever love me and I’ll end up dieing alone. I don’t want to think that, but I always am. It used to be a joke to me, like “Why the hell am I thinking this? lol.” But now I can’t help but believe it. I would really like some help. so advice, anything. I also need something to actually make me want to live to the next day, what I said above isn’t enough. I really don’t see the point for me to continue living.. And I know I made a mistake someplace in this, or I left something out.. But just try to help..

Answer #1

I’ve told this so often that I should copy and paste it. I’m 54 years old and my son and I are stuck in this little duplex apartment. We’re both disabled. The only time I can go out is when I go to the Dr. I can’t be around all the toxins outside because I will get Pneumonia and could die. I’ve taken so many antibiotics that there aren’t that many that I can take anymore (although they are coming out with more new ones). Actually, I should knock on wood, because I’m taking medicines that have kept the Pneumonia at bay for quite a while now.

I have severe COPD (Emphysema). I have to stay in bed all day. The only time I can get up is to go to the bathroom. I am very weak and get out of breath even though I am on Oxygen 24 hrs a day. I get out of breath if I stand for very long and I have to, literally, hold my head up because my bones are messed up and I have no muscle.

There’s so many things wrong with me that I don’t have the energy to type them all. Just take my word for it. My life sucks and I get very depressed just writing about it.

I understand that it’s bad that your Mom is being mean. My Mom was the same way. She’s passed away now and so is my Dad and almost everyone in my family. But I found out that she was jealous of me and I don’t know why. That was when I was a teenager. A lot of mothers act that way. Just try to hang in there. Did you say that you could talk to a school counselor?

Well, I have to go. I know that it’s not much of a consolation that there may be someone who has it worse than you. I know that it doesn’t help you in any way. I hate it when someone tries to tell me that. But just try to hang in there. Look forward to those things that you hope for in the future.

Answer #2

wow, your mom is SO mean. Thats just not right what she’s doing to you - what mother makes fun of how their child laughs? Everyone is different, is she expecting you to be perfect or something? When the world is mean to you, your mother is supposed to be the one who loves you for whatever you are. Well do you know your dad? Like I mean do you see him a lot and do you talk to him, and is he a nice man? Because maybe living with your dad will be better for you. I think you should just stick up for yourself and tell your mom - listen, I really don’t feel happy here with you and I want to see if I could go live with dad. You can’t just keep making fun of me - it really hurts my feelings and I feel depressed and you don’t understand how sad it makes me when you say those things. I really hope you find a way to deal with this. You deserve to be happy. I think you really need to work on your self confidence. Don’t let people bring you down, you are you and when you are confident in yourself others will not easily let you down.

Answer #3

And wow… Amarante… I know exactly how you feel. My life sucked as well. I had a psychopathic mom. She left when I was 7. Then my dad remarried this one woman who is really mean to me as well. I’m only a 13 year old, and she treats me as though I should understand EVERYTHING in the world… I know exactly how you feel. You make a mistake and they call you a failure… My dad used to threaten to send me back to my mother as well. But if your mother is so mean to you, then why not live with your father? But if you can’t stand either of them… Then start a new life. Maybe this is your call. You can get emancipated from your parents then be adopted into a family that DOES care. I hope everything goes well for you… I’m sorry about your mother… And I’m sorry about how you have friends that betray you. Don’t let that get to you though. Stand strong. Because there is always someone suffering so much more in the world. So never afford to waste your life. I hope that I helped..

Answer #4

hey I would call child protective services (CPS)…I’m 11 years old,and maybe I can help you,you could also try running away…and then run to your local police station…turn your mom in, if you don’t like your dad request being in a foster home, I’m SURE they’ll help you out of your miserable life…

Answer #5

your mum sounds like she has no parenting skills which may not be her fault but thats another story. YOU need to tell someone other than this forum whats going on. If you cant say it out loud print what youve written here and take it with you to someone like a counselor (school, church) Im not churchy but they will know how to help or tell you where to go. If youre just some kids havin a laugh by making this up well haha but you might also want to think about if you know anyone that might really be in trouble it would make you feel much happier to help them than doin this.

Answer #6

its okay. look, I agree with krissy12354, call cps! what your mom is doing is not normal and like katwoman said she is probably jealous of you for some reason… I know it sounds dumb but I bet its true. try families first. they have a base in Lansing, Michigan.

maybe this will help http://www.michigan.gov/dhs/0,1607,7-124-5452_7124_7210-15373–,00.html

Answer #7

Yeah so what? I act emo, but I can’t help my major mood swings..And right now, I really don’t give a f*ck.

Answer #8

how are you hanging in their?

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