lies, lies and more lies...

ok so here’s the deal…I’ve lied a lot in the past..I thought about them everyday…1day a friend of mine confessed of a few lies she told and it gave me the confidence to tell the truth..I told the truth about everything except one BIG lie…I didnt think much of it then

btw, the lie was something I said I did

a year passed and I told 2 people about it…they both went and told on me giving them every last detail that I told them (which wasnt true)

the school got envolved and I got called down to the office…they questioned me and basically, I told them truth…I told them that I never told anyone I did whut they said I did

they called my house and my parents got envolved as well…I told them the same thing I told the office…they believed me and so did the office…the office told me that theyd check up on me every once in a while to see how im doing…its been 4 months since then and they havent called me down…I’ve seen them here and there to talk bout my schedule but thats pretty much it

now, this lie I told is REALLY bothering me…I think bout it everyday…its like haunting me…I have this one really good friend..shes my best friend and she knows it (I am her best friend as well) my status’ on aim have been reflecting on this situation lately and she asked me whuts up with it? I told her that I lied (to her) and a few others..she keeps telling me it’ll be ok but ik it wont..I told her that it’ll really hurt her and shed be dissapointed if I told her the truth

I told her id tell her whut it was when we graduated high school (which is in about 3 years) after a month of debating and realizing shed really get mad that I waiting so long to tell her I eased in and told her id tell her in 3 months (after my birthday in the summer) she agreed and keeps saying the same things over and over again: “it’ll be ok..I wont get mad or dissapointed” blah blah blah

so help me PLEASE…I am in desperate need of some advice!! thanx