Is there anything I can do to recover my sanity?

Hi. I am a 19 year old male. I have been involved in many things ranging from drugs to the cia mostly due to my involvement with psionics from an early age. I just recently spent some time in the navy and was given an entry level medical seperation due to other problems. The main reason for the seperation was for some reason I would just pass out at random times for no apparent reason. Ever since I was young I have experienced what I somewhat believe to be mild hallucinations and I have also had problems with multiple personalities. One of these I believe is particularly dangerous because everytime he takes over and comes out to play I feel the urge to rip someone apart and savor the gore. Fortunately enough I have always been insane enough that some part of me has been able to prevent myself from acting on these strange urges.

Anyways now things are getting worse. I can’t go anywhere with out him messing with me. His goal is to take my sanity and hes been doing a good job.

I can’t go anywhere without seeing myself die over and over again. If I am going somewhere in a car my mind takes off and to me the car will either run into something hard, fall off a bridge and sink in some water, or end in some other horrible death. I experience every bit of a painful death to reappear back in my seat usually unharmed. This doesn’t only happen with cars though it seems like I am always experiencing these death trips. Sometimes I think I am possessed by some sort of demon and other times I think I am just insane. I’m not really sure what is wrong with me. Right now I’m getting to the point where this is going to become a huge problem for me not only because the experiences themselves are worsening but also I am getting to the age where I need to become self dependant. Before it wouldn’t matter too much if he decides to rampage and destroy my room but I would hate to lose myself at work or really in any sort of public.

Also, I think you should know that if these are hallucinations they are damn good ones. I see many things that I shouldn’t see. And these trips are not limited only to vision. All of my senses are completely fooled into believing the trip is real. I have come back from being attacked by things only to wake up and notice I have very strange scars from the event. I’ll end up with unexplainable burns, claw marks, ect.. It may not be real but in at least some small way my mind makes it real to me.

I’m not really sure what to say. There is a lot to say but not really any room on here to put it. I’ve never asked anyone for help like this before but I’m not sure whats going on with me or what I should do. I feel hollow.. Like slowly I am losing myself and they are taking over more and more.