Is she scared to tell me ?

I’ve noticed I’m attracted to my best friend ( 12 years ) and I know your thinking so… well shes a girl and I really l think I like her and we have a joke wwere we’er married and yea well some times when we are alone I just want to kiss her but I know that would ruin our friend ship because we had the whole what would you do if I was lesbain she said I would still be your friend but you couldnt sleep over well she has a pull and latly I’ve been noticing that shes not touchy that normal like she tried untie the top of my bathing suit well she did and then she jsut like tried to change the subject with like omg couls you believe if some one did that to you at a party and then I was trying to get her back and stuff and she gave me a wedgy and I gave her one and she was like it doesnt bother me I like things up my butt and I was like WHAT and shes like wow no I mean I wear thongs all the time so I dont know if maybe she feels the same way about me but she likes this guy named jay jay who likes her back but he has a girl friend an I’m confused on what to think is this all in my head or could she like me 2 ???????????? HELP ?!?!?!??!?!