im an orphan and nobody take me seriously.

Keep strong, you seem like a wonderful person. You can;t help your past, or the fact that you are a orphan, but you are fully responsible for who you are as a person, and you seem to be a very good person. Keep calling your relatives every once in a while to check up on them, be polite and kind. Everyone gets busy, life is pretty hectic, but Im sure your calling is nice. Stay strong and you will deff find that special girl.

You know you love me, Spoons

Yeah I agree with lerler4ever :)

You remind me of me. Im from London and an orphan and I go from feeling really powerful and great to feeling completely insignificant and worthless really quickly. And I too dream about a girl that was meant for me. Its good your at college, your on the right track. you have to use the misrey you have been dealt to drive you to work harder than anyone around you, so you achieve more than them and get a girl that appreciates you for your success and how much you value love. you also have to work hard to show your family that your even better than they are. when your feeling down, dont resort to drugs or alcohol to make it easier. you should have the grit to go through it alone.

Dear Fito, I am so sorry you are going through this. I kind of know how that feels. I wonder if your are going through depression? You will pull out of it. I know a nice guy like you will find the right one. You are the second fito I know. My dad used to get called fito too. Good Luck to you sweetie, Mama K