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My aunt died about 2 years ago..

My aunt died about 2 years ago..

She was my heart soul everything..

About 9 years ago she fell & broke her knee & due to some of her conditions she couldnt walk anymore unless she had her walker.

She had Diabetes & many more illnesses..

I remember it like it was yesterday..it was my dads birthday she was going to come over..then we got a call..saying that she had passed away..she had a heartattack & died at the hospital entrance..

Today I had to go to the hospital because I needed some medicine but I couldnt walk in I just couldnt I had so many flashbacks in my head..I miss her soo much I didnt know it was possible to hurt this much-ever.

She was like a grandma to me I practically grew up with her she was the one who kept me in check..after her fall I would stay with her weeks at a time..we went to her house EVERY SINGLE day..now I cant bear to even pull up at the driveway..it feels so empty with out her. I often find myself asking about her I dont want to accept the fact that shes gone-forever..it all feels like a horrible nightmare that I cant seem to wake up from I miss her calling me to check up on me..when the phone rings I get so happy thinking its her..then I realize its not & I break down crying.

Everyday feels like an external battle she was the one I trusted she was the one I want to talk to..at her funeral I had a breakdown because there were so many fake people there crying when they didnt even go visit her ONE FU*KING DAY!

Nobody can understand my pain my anger that im keeping inside..I just want it to go away I realize im never going to forget her its completely impossible but I just want something to distract me..

I dont want to keep hurting myself like this its like im slowly killing myself I dont know what to do I just want comfort I guess I want someone to tell me its okay & I dont talk to anyone about this so please dont suggest that..I dont think it was her time to go AT ALL. She was such a happy person she never let anything get her down I miss her sooo much geez my heart feels like jumping out of my chest

Can anyone give me some advice?..please :(

Sorry about the horrible spelling im not in the mood to fix it..

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Answer #1

She left 3 kids and a family that loved her very much. x[ I miss her

Answer #2

I know how you feel… 2 yeaz ago my grandpa died and a hella lotta people went but none every visited him :( try sports, musc, go out and hang with your friends, go 2 the galleria in houston, get out the house in other words, girl she wil always BE WITH U … I’m sure of it :)

Answer #3

sounds like you need to go to her grave site and talk to her. Or anywhere you feel close to her. Pay her a visit and get everything off your chest. I hope you find what works for you, it is never easy loosing a loved one. your wound will heal but the scar never goes away.

What worked for me was going to the grave and “visiting” I would sit there for about one hour and just talk about everything, and I felt better.

I am sorry you have to go through all this pain. but I do believe you will find away to “get in touch” with your Aunt.

Answer #4

My aunt died in 2007 of cancer she had multiple melanoma.. im her brain,legs, and chest.. R.I.P stephanie I miss her soo much and I wont for get her

Answer #5

I know you will never forget her and its okay to be upset because its part of the healing process. The best the is to keep her memory alive. And the best thing to do is to remember all the things that she taught you. Use what she taught you and lead by example now and dont let her teachings go invane. If you are in situations just remember what she would want you to do as if she were alive. Also maybe you can get a locket with her picture and always keep it around your neck so it will always hang above your heart. Im sure if she were here she would want you to make the best of everything and to be a better person for you.

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