How to get through these feelings?

first of all: you are not a bad person from what I read…dont feel like its your fault because it isnt…your mom might be having some issues but she loves u…I know how you feel…it can be terrifying…but always keep hope…there will come a time when your life is a wonderful happy place where you are surrounded by people who love and support u. and if its bugging you that much…talk to your friends…im sure they will be happy to at least listen to your problems…and it will make you feel so much better im praying for u to every god I can think of :)

Yeah, Sometimes you try to not make mistakes to see if that makes it better but it never does. And its understandable, your mom brings you down a lot, and she treatens you that she will leave you, and its understandle that you feel like your nothing like things are all your foult. But the best thing to do here, believe me, is to just believe it yourself, because it’s not true what she is saying, you are worth something and you should be happythat you are in this world. She dosent want you, but you know what you need to know that there are tons of people that do want you, that do love you, and just because your mom sais so its true for everyone else. My mom leaves for days and sometimes I also fear she wont come back because it’s clear that there not much love coming from her to me. Also telling your friends is not a problem, they are not going to suffer, because you know what thats whay they are there, thats why we all have friends. Meaby a school councelor, they are there to talk and some people find the happy. Is there more family around? Someone who you can tell what is going on with your mom. I’m always here. It’s understandeble that you can’t explain what you feel, because when perents you love don’t love you back it’s a feeling you can’t discribe.

I’m sorry to hear about this. I know how you feel. I’m 17 and my mom walked on me when I was 10. My other brothers and sisters are in foster care. I live with my dad. Maybe you could tell her how you really feel. If that doesn’t work talk to other family members that could maybe help. Sorry I’m not much of help, but I tried.

Your Mother has issues that are not your fault. She comes back because she loves you and cannot imagine living without you. I see one of two things happening with her.
Option 1: she has the same feelings that you do. She is everwelmed by all of her responsibilities and this is causing her a lot of emotional stress. Unfortunatey you get to witness it. .

Option 2: Your mother is bi-polar. You say she can be happy one second and then crazy mad the next. This is a classic sign. I suggest you look it up.

She needs to talk to someone. Either way she is depressed and she needs help. If she won’t get help then you should so that you can better understand what is happening and your family can help her.

I can’t even begin to imagine what you’re going thru… I do have a parent whose emotions are always fluctuating, but he’s never threatened to walk out on us. I don’t know whether or not you are a Christian, but it doesn’t matter because GOD loves you regardless of whether or not you believe HIM. He wants u, HE has a purpose for you. HE wants to take the heaviness of your heart and make it light, filled with HIS love. My best advise in getting through would be to maybe emotionally distance yourself from your mom so that when she does or says those hurtful things it doesn’t bring you as much pain… “For his anger [endureth but] a moment; in his favour [is] life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy [cometh] in the morning.” Psalms 30:5 I’m praying for you.

I agree with all the people above me,k?I am ALWAYS here,k?She does love you.Hope I helped a bit!=)