How -- I feel like such a loner! -- ?

I wish I knew, most of my friends still talk to me but half of them are some of my worst enemies now and the one who still are my friends aren’t close like I doubt they would back me up if I got into a fight. and I had to work super hard to get my friends back up to the “hanging out” level. I completely changed my attitude which surprisingly was a good thing, I got much cooler and this is more of the real me actually. I lost weight and got my own style, I’m sure I’m the only person on my school who looks/is emo and doesn’t look completely stupid. but I’m still not the kind of guy who can get any girl he wants like my best friend, he’s the only one that understands my pain but he toughened me up. well enough about my back story! if you’re in a big school then find some new friends like you! from what you sound like you’re coming from a pretty popular clique so this may be hard but find some people who will accept you for you and you’ll probably get more popular again and if not at least these friends are real. if you’re like me and come from a pretty small school with only a couple groups of friends try to change yourself up a little bit but not change who you are completely, remember that clothes and looks may change but you won’t. and I don’t know if it’s because I’m really lucky or what but I’m back with a few of my old friends and a few new ones. the new ones are mostly girls by the way.you’ll get through it, hopefully without cutting yourself like I did.