help me not feel this way

Ok, so it sounds like you have a case of depression. It doesnt go away easy!! It runs in my family. If you have depression you will most likely always have it…I know it sucks but there are ways to handle it. Its a mental problem (im not calling you mental) but its inside your head. Most of the time you feel invisible. These boys that you have around you, seem to be making your depression worse. I had the same problem. I felt as if I was not good enough for this boy I liked. The only thing I did was focused on other things, NOT BOYS! School, cheerleading…and other fun things. People can easily mess up, and thats what affects you. I just began focusing on things I enjoyed and life is turning out to be amazing! I made new friends, that I could fit in with, and met boys that look up to me not down on me. Besides, these boys are more my type, and my life has been easier and I am no longer depressed. Yeah some things will depress you and make you upset but just find it something to laugh at. When I stub my toe…I would always scream and yell at who ever owned the thing that I stubbed my toe on. One day I stubbed my toe on a suit case…it was MINE. I laughed because I just couldnt yell at myself. Now I just learn to laugh at simple things like that. You should to. DONT GIVE UP. Oh and that friend of yours…shes not your friend because you lied? Well I know you souldnt lie, and you shouldnt but your friend should always be there for you! Shes/He is not a good friend…sounds like a bossy controlling friend.