why should I bother going on webcam again?

right so im in a long distance relationship with my boyfriend and to cut a long story short, I go on webcam for the first time so he can see me after ages. (for those of you who are thinking I went on webcam to do something like strip or show him my breasts I wasnt intending to do that) anyway, im not really confident about the way I look, I never have been but im really self-consious nowadays as I had cancer and went through treatments and it took awhile for me to look like how I used to. so I finally plucked up the courage to go on webcam yesterday and I slowly showed my face. it wasnt as bad as I thought so I thought id do it again today I go on and we’re talking and then he stops talking for like 10 minutes, I ask him why he isnt talking and he says “sorry I was just looking at something on youtube” ugh, whats the point just sitting there looking like a fool thinking that hes actually looking at me and is happy to see me when hes busy on youtube - after doing it even though it was hard for me

am I overreating? or did he look away because he thought I didnt look too great. I dont want to sound like im moaning but its just really hard for me you know and I dont want what confidence I have knocked by this. if anyone can give any advice or answer this in some way.