Ughh. boy problems. help?

okay this will be long but I want to to fully understand… Okay so in 7th grade I had a crush on this 8th grader and he liked me back because at region band tryouts he was like blowin kisses at me and winkin and stuff then we messed with eachother and talked and stuff during the year. then at the end of the year in band we were watchin a movie in the audotorium and he sat by me…by choice. we talked and stuff but we texted during the summer but he was going into high school and im thinking maybe that he didnt ask me out because hed be in hs and id still be and jr high??? then we saw eachother at the relay for life this past friday and we talked a little but them he started to walk around and like pretty much stalk this other girl even though we had been talking (but she was going out with another guy) I thought he liked mee I really did, but what hurt me was that he got my hopes up then just pushed me away. but I just feel like everyone else gets the guys and that im just kind of there. im not like suicidal but really, I feel like evry time I think something good is going to happen, it jjust kinda blows up in my face. yeahh I know some people are gonna call me pathetic but I just really need some good advice.