Who would be willing to share some of the extreme stories from when they had an eating disorder?

I realize I totally ranted and I went all over the place XD

I am willing to share. I was 13 when it started, I had no control over anything in my life I figured well I can control wat I eat so that was the beiginning. Then a few months later I ended up in a in house treatment program and all that did was teach me how to do it better. After 3 months in thr and all the tricks I learned they had released me. Then I had to hide it from my parents by wearin bigger clothes so they wud think I was fine, about 4 months later I ended up passing out in school and was rushed to the hospital, where they referred me to another facility, so I had lost 60lbs in this 6 month time span. In the new facility they taught me even more tricks. This back and forth went on for another 5 yrs, in and out of facilities, gaining weight so I cud leave, to only go home with new ideas on how not to eat. When I was 17 I moved out on my own and things only got worse. I wud exercise till I was pukeing and passing out. I finally learned that that was no way to live. I was ok for about 3 yrs then the cycle started again. So to make a long story a little shorter, I still struggle to this day with it. When I can’t control anything in my life I have to tell myself I won’t always b able to control things and have to force myself to eat. Believe its not fun, but my mind says, hey this is something you can control, u know the not eatin, so that’s that. Any questions?

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I’m having an eating disorder right now.. It started in September when my boyfriend broke up with me. After that I slowly stopped eating. I ate one time a day or I didn’t eat anything at all. Soon I started getting skinnier than before(I was skinny even when I ate normally). Now I look awful. My body looks horrible…You can see my ribs, my arms are just bones and skin..My parents are trying to make me eat but I just don’t feel like eating. Few days ago my mom noticed that I’ve become even skinnier. I wish I could do something about it..I try to eat but I want to throw up after that. I don’t feel hungry at all…even if I don’t eat for days. Now I’m scared to look in the mirror because the person I see has nothing to do with me…when I look in the mirror I see a skeleton……

My entire life i have been overweight. After my parents divorce i packed on pounds and by the age 10 i was wearing adult woman’s pants that were size 18. I was constantly made fun of because of my weight and appearance and it drove me absolutely insane. I became severely depressed and all I did was eat to comfort myself. There were times when my mom would even ask me when i was expecting because i was the size of a pregnant woman. This summer i had enough of it and decided it was time I lost weight. It began out healthy i would eat about 1400 calories a day and exercise a little here and then. I was seeing results and was really happy but then i found Thinspo on tumblr and my self esteem was completely shot. Slowly i ate less and less while exercising as much as i possibly could. It didn’t help my boyfriend at the time said we couldn’t meet until i was 140lbs so i desperately wanted to be “skinny” and “beautiful”. Everything i ate made me feel guilty and every time i ate i would punish myself. I had a log of everything i consumed and i would cut myself for each thing i ate. I even cut fat into my stomach.There were times i tried to purge my food but i didn’t have a gag reflex. I ever tried toothbrushes,consuming salt water, cinnamon, and consuming toxic things like shampoo to make myself purge but it never worked. Come the beginning of December the only thing i would eat was celery. Then i ate absolutely nothing at all. I would drink green tea, water and coffee. I got to the point where everytime i stoodd up i began to black out. I had no energy and was falling about. I was so worried that if i ate anything it would just be stored as fat. I was forced to eat when i was with my boyfriend and the day after i too a whole box of laxatives. My parents eventually found out not long ago and i’m eating better now. I still eat less than 1200 calories a day but i feel much better than i did when i was starving myself

I’m not really sure what this would be called, but I have an eating disorder mixed with plain old forgetfulness. I was 5’4 and 121 pounds, and I wasn’t very happy with my weight at the beginning of the school year. Now anyone who knows me knows that I have everything wrong with me, practically (phycological insomnia, ADHD, asthma, and mal petit seizures are the ones I mostly angsted over) so it’s not that odd that I didn’t like myself. So I lost myself in video games like WoW like never before. I’ve always played a lot but I would lose myself for hours upon end, forgetting to eat in the process. After a bit less than a month I weighed 117 pounds and decided to starve myself. Other than my Red Bull addiction and drinking protein shakes religiously, I ate the bare minimum until I weighed 94 pounds. One day when dad was on an overnight trip I passed out while working on my homework from hunger. I was extremely lucky that I managed to wake up, I’m not sure what would have happened if I hadn’t woken up by the time dad got home. I’ve began eating since then, and now I weigh 112 pounds. It’s still hard sometimes, but I just have to focus on the fact that no matter what I think, I am NOT fat.

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