Really sick of this...

I was questioning myself to put this up, but I am feeling rather..grim.

today was one of the worst days I have ever had. let’s start from the beginning..

well. I made a video of me singing blink 182 - all the small things and I thought I deleted it. but I didnt… and it’s just me messing about miming to the song, making faces and stuff. just having a little bit of fun to make me happy, right?

this was about seven weeks ago. I went to this club thing called “Rock Solid” and my ‘ex’ bestfriend was there (im not her friend anymore as she has went to drugs, drinking, smoking and one night stands - but I wont go into detail..) anyway, I havent talked to her since she started doing all these things sincelike.. last summer? aaanways…

She stole my phone, took all my videos and photo’s and songs and stuff off my phone and put it onto hers. [WITHOUT MY PERMISSION] - and put the video’s [expecially the one of blink 182] onto a certain popular video broadcasting website. I dont know the link, but people have said that they have seen the video. Most people I my year at school have the video on their phones and were laughing about it today, and I walked out of my class and just fell apart and into tears.

I don’t need this stress - my exams are coming up and I don’t need this in my life! I wan’t to focus more on revising instead of video’s. I feel like I can’t have ANY fun or adventure these days, as people will only just bring you down. This has knocked my self-confidence - all because of one silly video. I can’t even tell her to delete it as she is NEVER at school. The whole of the school year, she has probably went about twice?…

I don’t have the link, but when I do, I WILL get the police involved, yeah sure. But I know that it will only go back on the site. Only time will solve my problem and I realise this.. I just needed to get it off my back as im having major trust issues at the moment.

Thanks for reading, any calming advice for me?…please?