How can I ever leave him if he will kill himself?

This guy, how long have you known him? This seems really tough. Like him saying he will kill himself isn’t the way to keep you forever. He should be able to let you go and if it’s meant to be things will work out in the end. Your future and family seem to mean a lot to you. Keep in mind that school (if in high school) doesn’t necessarily set the tone for the rest of you life. Try to sort out your priorities and you’ll know what to do.

It is possible to have a boyfriend, have a family, go to school and work. Its sounds like a lot but thats life, when you grow older and get married you’ll have your husband, work, housework, maybe children and your fam, its never easy to juggle everything.

So get used to it while you have it easy enough. 1st decide whether you want to keep your boyfriend around becos it sounds like you are having doubts. He says he will kill himself becos he cant imagine like without you, but he will ge over it eventually. But you need to set times and days for everyone. Make sure you get all your school work done, and go to work when you are supposed to. Those are the most important. Then make sure you see your fam enough and your boyfriend, juggle it enough so you have time for everyone and your boyfriend will have to understand it cant always be him all the time and you have other priorites in your life. As long as you dont neglect him completely, he should be ok.