My so called real dad and his family

Right now I feel mad and disappointed. My mom called my grandparents on my dad’s side on May 15 to see if my dad was out of jail. By the way they never call themselves it’s always my mom doing the calling and she talks to my “grandma” and ask stuff about my dad I’ve never seen or talked to my dad since I was little plus he’s always in jail so. my mom doesn’t like them and I’m starting to not even care about any of them I mean what kind of grandparents are they if they never ever call to see how I’m doing say happy bd or anything. until that day I hadn’t talked to any one of them in prob more than 10 years. I remember like maybe 5 years ago when my dad was in jail again he sent me a letter I was happy but not for long the letter sounded like it was copied straight from the bible none of it was from him. I don’t remember how anyone of them look like plus I live in oklahoma they live in georgia. so back to the story so my mom called and asked about my dad and he was still in jail gets out next year like that will change anything. she was talking to my “grandma” then my mom gave me to the phone and she was like hows school and I wish your mom would let you come down there please yall do nothing for me and first contact in I don’t know how many years so no then she said she will send pictures of the family and that she will call again next week I actually prayed that she would do all that. hoped she was telling the truth ha nope I now no to never hold my breath. I mean come on its now june 6. I remember she said on the phone I luv you even though you don’t know me anymore. I guess in her own way she does the no contact way. I remember staying there for a while with my dad and gp but not much. I use to cry but I’m over it. they never send anything to me I remember when I was like 7 or so they sent some clothes I was so happy ha they had knew my size from mom and they had kept them for so long that everything was too small when sent. I’ve never got a happy bd from anyone no presents. I know their my family but how many times can I hope they will call and nothing happens. I was actually thinking that when I’m 18 cus and only cus I will be a adult and my mom can’t stop me. My mom says I can never go until they be start calling me and helping me they always lie I remember one time my mom called and they said they would send money to help buy clothes for school didn’t happen plus they have our number and address never changed so I was thinking when I’m 18 I would stay their for a couple months before I went to college but now since my “grandma” saying she would send pictures and call next week and it didn’t happen I’m not . As of now I now I don’t have any family in georgia their gone I mean I’m not a mean person but this has been going on for years and can’t take no more of hoping for nothing. If they start calling by themselves to to talk to me I’m willing to give everyone a chance but I doubt that will ever happen. I mean I have cousins aunts uncles grandparents and out of all of them none of them can call and when I call or my mom we talk to my “grandma” or “grandpa” never anyone else so I’ve never talked to them since I was down there and I barely remember that. My mom got pregnant with me at a very young age but that’s no excuse. It’s all just pointless I guess my mom’s family is the only ones for me oh well their great.

Does anyone think I should waste my time hoping? cus I’v done it for so long cried so much asking my mom what’s wrong with me why don’t they want me that I’m through I have no more for them they don’t exist I’m tired of being the one doing all the calling and geting worthless promises from them. unless their willing to be a family to me cus I’v done all the giving I can give and now it’s their turn. I’m willing to give them another chance but like I said I doubt they will change they have been like this for almost 17 years and I doubt they will change for me so like I said they don’t exist to me right now I’m content with what I have but whats wrong with wanting all my family. Give my yr opinions, am I doing the right thing by cutting them out of my life till they want to be in it?

I think I am ty for anyone who helps