I hate her

I hate my mom I know it’s a strong word I know all kid’s get mad at there parent’s. I know it’s normal to say I hate my mom but I mean it I fcking hate her .I am going to write why I hate her and I just want you to tell me if I am right or wrong.she tells me she listen’s to be but she doesn’t reply at times. She doubt’s me all the time telling me I can’t do stuff not like I’m not supposed to but just I can’t do it when in actuality I can . She tells me I’m dumb or retarded she act’s like a kid and doesn’t know when enough is enough while arguing .she doesn’t do what shes told I know that sounds bad but I mean I have been telling her for the past year to get me a dentist appointment and she still hasn’t done it .I need her to do it cause she need’s to take me to it cause it’s a out of town appointment .she doesn’t discipline me or my sister and my little sister really need’s it shes 12 and shes like totally out of control. When I try to mother her my mother get’s pised but it’s like if I don’t no one will. She left before x-mas vacation and she say’s she got stuck out of town when in actuality she had ways to get home just chose not to take those ways. But any ways she supposedly got stuck and she didn’t call to tell me she wasn’t going to be home and I tried called her and other people to try and get a hold of her and I didn’t get a hold of her till 2 3 day’s later. Then after I got a hold of her I needed to speak top her after that then tried getting a hold of her I couldn’t and then found out like a week later that she wasn’t where she was supposed to be and she left .she tells people stuff that I don’t want her to tell them like when I first started my period she told like my hole fam I was like what the hell and when I told her I was bi she told my friend. Lastly the worst possible thing she could do when I was 4ish she left me with my grandfather who ended up rapping me who happened to have rapped her when she was younger and had rapped some one she new now tell me this what kinda fcking dumb a.s person leave’s there child with a harmful person ? So any ways my big question how many of you think shes a bad parent ? And how many don’t ? And please don’t make up excuses for her I hate when people do that it piss’s me off