hurt and confused.=/

ok so this is a bit long… bare with me… I just need to know what you guys think. ok… so where to begin? there is this guy.. lets call him josh. well I met josh bc he was best friends with my brother. and I was always with my brother… so josh actually became my best friend too. from the moment I met josh when I was abt 10… I had the BIGGEST crush on him. well… 2 years later… he told me that he liked me.. and I told him I like him… but nothing really happened.. and we remained best friends. well abt… 6 months later we moved away. I didnt really keep in touch with him that much. my brother did though. well abt 8 months after we moved my brother committed suicide… and I moved back to the same place. and we kinda kept in touch a little more.. but it wasnt the same… so abt 3 months after I moved back…I realized that I was falling in love with him. and I wanted to tell him so bad… but I just couldnt find the courage.=/ well… my 9th grade year came… and we only hung out like twice that whole time… now im in 10th grade.. and abt a month ago I FINALLY told him how I really feel. I mean I’ve NEVER…ever felt this way abt someone. well when I told him… he told me that he felt the same way and that he always wanted to tell me… but that he never had the balls too. and he said he would like to hang out with me. well like I said its been abt a month… and he hasnt tried to contact me again in ANY way… so I don’t know if I should believe him. I’ve pretty much given up trying on him, like… before I told him how I feel… I was always the one who had to call or message him on myspace… I feel like if he really felt that way he would make some effort… and we would have already hung out. and I know he works a lot… but its been a friggin month now. im just hurt and confused. tell me what ya think. thanks