Epiphany

I awoke from a dream the other day it wasn’t a normal dream for me and I woke up in a cold, cold sweat because I’d had an epiphany

The foresight to which I would foresee took my breath away, and no matter how deep of a breath I gulped the anxiety became urgency

This feeling that I kept, was the feeling one gets..like a baby needing it’s nursing, still I chuckle inside while I pushed it to the back of my mind and went on about my day as nothing

towards the end of the week I was knocked off of my feet with the ringing of the phone, It was my mama to say..”I had a heart attack that day..luckily I wasn’t alone”.

After this call I would sit and weep for the many years I had given her adolescent grief

If I could turn back the hands of time I would not do it just for me, I would do it for my mom and dad so that I remember them smiling and not for making them sad

I now replay my entirely short life to figure out just how it all flew by, and as I follow the deaths through our generation tree, yep, the next is my parents..and then will be me