Doctor isn't helping me

Great job for going to a doctor. I know what you mean about feeling like it isn’t helping at all. My doctor told be to do something I enjoy after eating as well. It can be as simple as just playing cards. anything really to get your mind off throwing up and stuff. It is a lot easier said than done for sure though. Just take little steps at a time. Are you truely binging or does it just seam like a lot to you that you just ate. Try eating a food that is “safe” to you and keep it down. It can be just a few bites even. Little by little you can eat a little more of it. Just take it slow. I feel like my doctors are trying to make me eat more too fast and it is just too hard. I do good for a couple of days and then I eat less then I did before for a little while. At this point though you have to fight your “eating disorder” thoughts. You are strong to make yourself purge and stuff so be strong to fight and beat those thoughts. You can do it little by little. Just take it day by day and fight to get better. You may be unsure of getting better but don’t you ever wish you could just eat and enjoy food, be like a little kid again and eat when you feel hungry? I know how you feel and I recently had a friend commit suicide. It was devastating so please don’t take that route. More people than you know need you here. It may not seem like it but you are loved. Stay strong and fight this. If you ever need anything just send me a message