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Should I contact them to tell them about my attempted suicide even though I'm not supposed to?

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Due to struggles with alcohol, a recent family death, losing my home in the flooding, etc, I recently lost several close friends whom I am no longer supposed to contact. They are being understanding, and are willing to chat when we bump into eachother, but due to the rampant drama in my life, they would prefer if we don't call or hang out with eachother. I have had trouble letting go, and while I agreed to not contact them starting in June, until October, I would occasionally try to contact them because I felt abandoned and lonely.

I've been sober for over a month and am also dealing with depression and issues with my form of Autism quite well. However, while I was still drinking, about a month and a half ago, I tried to kill myself. And while I have still had urges, I will never try to do it again, and am feeling exponentially better every single day.

But I still have depression about the friends I'd lost. A doctor suggested that I should contact all of my friends (including those I no longer speak with) and tell them what happened so I can build a support network. And I would love to, as I've been spread really thin with my job, helping my family rebuilt their lives after losing relatives and their home, etc. But I'm worried about contacting those people I'm not supposed to talk to. I don't want to be annoying, and while I miss them, I haven't contacted them in about a month. Should I tell them about what happened like the doctor suggested? I don't want them to pity me.