Should I contact them to tell them about my attempted suicide even though I'm not supposed to?

i guess that is truly up to them, you can only explain what happened- those of them that feel like reaching out will do just that- those who don’t i would allow to go their own way. back about 15 years ago i quit drinking entirely- i had a few bouts with serious depression and attempted suicide and chronic cutting, the difference here is that my circle of friends were very unhealthy for me and i had to leave them behind entirely in order for me to rebuild my life and maintain my sobriety . did i miss those friends? sure, they were like family to me and we shared some truly fun times, i realized that if i maintained those friendships they would ultimately make me fall off the wagon and i would remain a drunk. this is something that you will need to look at in deciding who to contact and who not to. i have been sober for the past 15 going on 16 years and have only come across those friends very briefly a couple of times- what i noticed was how they were stuck in the same old drunken rut they were in 15 years ago. as for the cutting i was able to leave that behind as well, the urges sometimes crop up when i am facing some hardship- but sobriety allows me to face those urges and not give in to them- knowing what my behavioral trigger was and being prepared to face it in a positive way without cutting. the same holds true for my suicidal urges- sobriety is a powerful tool to wield against your troubles- i decided I WAS IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE, NOT THE BOTTLE- and it was simple as that.

so- my advice would be to list out your friends and decide who would be a supportive and POSITIVE influence in your “ life rebuild”, leave behind anyone who was an ‘enabler’ to your drinking and would only represent a NEGATIVE influence on your life going from this point on.