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Why doesn't anyone make me feel the same?

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Right heres the thing, my boyfriend of three years split up with me back in October. We were engaged, living together and planning our future, and the most important thing, he was my best friend, then he just decided he wasn't happy.

I was absolutly heart broken and I just crumbled, I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep and I didnt feel like living anymore. But my friends and family were great and helped me get through the worst of it, by keeping me busy. But no matter what I cant stop thinking about him.

He made me believe in love at first site, I mean it. I had got a new job in a golf club and he was a chef and the first time I walked into the kitchen he turned round and smiled at me and from that minuet onwards I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.

Since he ended it, like I said I crumbled, but my friends and family helped me out loads., and I slowly started to not cry so much, and began eatting and sleeping again. Now I'm trying my hardest to get on with my life, but everything I do in life reminds me of him. I turn on the radio and theres always songs we used to sing together, same with the TV and TV programmes and films. If I even smell someone wearing the after shave hes wears, I feel like im going to die.

It is soo hard to try and get on with my life but I've defently learnt how to put a brave face on. Its just guys keep asking me out on dates and I try to go but no one ever makes me feel the way that I felt when I was with him, I was compfy with him and he made me feel alive.

Am I ever going to be able to feel whole again or am I gonna spend the rest of my life alone because I cant get close to anyone else.