When guys say this what does it mean?

Ok so yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend for nno reason at all its so dumb of me but before that he was so mad cause I was hanginout with my friends an yeah guys where there but I didnt no any guys were going to be there I dont tlk to other guys I seriously ignore any guy that tried even saying hey to me an my boyfriend was mad about guys being there an then I broke up with him in a text “pathetic and immature much I no” but anyway I broke up with him 2 times this was the second an he swore to me an himself he wouldnt takeme back after I broke his heart he was like I cant believe you broke up with me agian, you promised you wouldnt im sorry but I cant go through this again yoou broke my heart 2 times an I cant take a 3rd time an I was “getting ready to commit to you an be with you for life but I guess you dont want the same thing.. Im sorry I really am ill be over to get my ring an ill give you back yours” an I fell to peices then I told him I couldnt do I need him an I said sorry an I basically beggeed but I said if you dont want me anymore its ok I understand just telll me an ill leave you alone an then he said ok ill give you another chance but if you ever do it again thats it never again an he was hurt an he came over an we tlked I cryed an threw a fit I was so upset an he was holding me an his tears fell on my shoulder it was the saddest night for me in a long time but I need to no what he ment by I was gonna commit to you an be with you for life..? Like I mean he is faithful were always together except that night an were honest with each other except for me im trying hard tho an I was stupid for that I know