What should I do if im getting urges to cut again?

I understand what you are going through I have recently stop cutting but I get extreme urges to cut and it is very difficult to deal with. Something that helps me with my urges is punching a wall or a pillow or writing and drawing. When you get urges try to get your mind off them by doing something you enjoy. It also helps if you can actually deeply talk to someone about why you are feeling the way you are. The main thing that keeps me from cutting is a promise I made though to a friend, or a pact. Things like that can be very helpful. I wish you the best of luck I know its difficult to deal with and I hope I have helped in anyway. If you do need someone to talk to send me a message and id love to.

yea I’ve been thinking about a journal but im afraid my mom will find it, because she did when I was younger and read everything saying how much I hate my life and how I think shes a b!tch, and she sent me to therapy when I have in like 4th grade, and I stopped going like 2 days afterward, and im more depressed and sad than mad and whant to punch somthing but I’ve done it a few times its just hard to keep it tomyself when I dont have my brother around anymore

Call him. He’s not gone from your life. Try and set up a regular meeting with him so you have something to look forward to. You’re not alone. And listen, your friends cant fix this. Which is why I think you need to give therapy a chance. The therapist cant fix it either. But they can help you figure out how to.