What is going on?

There is this guy I have been liking for ages and I think I still do. He’s a year older than me and I added him on a social site and msn to get to know him. After I added him on msn he asked who I am and we just started talking about random stuff but after few days my fren told him I like him. And he had this whole list of “hot girls” and I was one of them and he said that im 9 out of 10. (10 is the highest)And after he asked me questions like “ why do you like me? Do you think Im hot?” and after few days he would be like “ do you still like me?” then after few months I stopped talking to him then he asked me again if I like him but I didn’t answer me and he said that I have nice legs. Then we stopped talking for like 3 months. Then after summer, we talked again about random things. and it felt as if he liked me because he comforted me for this subject we were both bad at. But we NEVER said hi or talked at school. I just… I dont know I expected somthing to happen but no it didnt :( I like him and he have been my longest crush EVER. and he has a really ugly girlfriend. I mean seriosly.. shes really ugly. and he was OBSESSED over hot girls. Im not saying im hot but a lot of guys tell me Im hot.I just keep falling for him. this is why I need a boyfrend. To forget about the past and just go on with my life with a guy. Im depressed and sometimes I cry for no reason… I just… dont know what to do