What do you think? To give it up or not to give it up?

Was it a good idea for me to have sex with a guy I don’t find attractive?

I am pretty shallow and he has bugged me about it because he’s in love with me. He wanted to pleasure me even if I was the only one receiving but not giving back to him. He said that it doesn’t matter if I don’t find him cute or handsome, as long as he’s showing that he loves me and making me feel good. I guess I’m being unappreciative and rude but I feel that if I’m not attracted to him, the sex is meaningless if it’s one-sided. I tried it once with him a few days ago, but the entire time, I had my eyes closed because I didn’t want to see him. So I still couldn’t enjoy it despite what he said. He asked if he was better looking, would I have wanted to do it again and have my eyes open during, and I couldn’t answer. I do feel that way… I told him “Sorry, I tried it, but I still don’t agree.”

I mean, it felt good as long as I had my eyes closed and he wasn’t kissing me.