What can I do to let her know?

Okay, so my girlfriend and I have been together for 2 years 3 months now. I know I’ve talked about her a few times, but now I’m at a fork in the road.

It all started on Wednesday May 12…

My girlfriend’s birthday was May 6, and being the caring person, I told her I would get her something special. I sent her my gift through the mail, and told her to go check it on Tuesday May 11, cause the tracking No. said it was signed. We couldn’t find the gift. I told her to ask her mother, and her mother said “I don’t know of any delivery.” Later, the next day, I told her to go try to find it again, but she told me she would later, since she had to go to school for a meeting at 6p.m. I said “I love you so much.” “I love you too, Sasha. Always.”

That night, at around 10:15p.m., I get a text saying “Sasha…go to bed please, something happened, and please don’t call in the morning, I’ll tell you..” “Okay. Sweet dreams. I love you.” “You too.”

I was curious, so I didn’t sleep, and when I got up to check for any new texts that morning, she had told me how her ma had the gift since its delivery, and read through everything. She told me that she can no longer be with me, and that I will move on soon. I refused to keep reading without feeling pain, and continued to read as I sat in my boxers, tears falling down my cheeks, and the pain of my heart almost stopping.

I tried to shower for school,and almost attempted to stab myself with scissors in the shower, but the pain of her telling me this was too much to do it. I went to school that day…upset, quiet, eyes red from tears, and I didn’t have the guts to even tell my partner in English what had happened.

Later that day, I tried to text her things like “I love you. I don’t want to lose you, believe me, I don’t. I won’t ever stop loving you.” and later(2 hours later), she had texted me saying that “I can’t text you or call…my ma is monitoring my bill. Please forget me, Sasha. Please don’t talk to me again…it’ll make it so much easier to move on if we don’t talk anymore.” I tried to counteract it by saying I loved her and cared so much, but then she said “I can’t! I’m sorry, but I can’t! You’e ripping my family apart, and I can’t leave everything for you! It hurts to see you and my ma cry, it really hurts! Don’t tell me you love me, you can move on, please!!”

You can imagine how much it must have pained my heart…I was the cause of her family hating her…

Thursday and Friday came…only one reply for me “You can call me at 3 a.m. saturday night next week. I won’t have my phone, but I’ll use someone else’s. You can hear me cry all night, but you won’t change my mind.” “…I won’t lose you. We promised to never let anything in our way, and I can feel you still wanting to be with me..please believe me.” Saturday came…I get a text saying “I’m not allowed to keep your gifts, Sasha. I have to give them back, but please, don’t send me my gifts back.” “Steal something from it, please. Just take one thing and keep it close to you.” “I can’t, she’ll find out.” “Alright..I love you, Aisha.” “I can’t text you anymore…my phone is being taken away.” “Write me then…I won’t let us lose each other.”

I find out later that night, no more a social site, MSN, AIM, Phone, nothing… I am so torn up by this. I don’t know what to do, I truly love her, and I won’t give up on her no matter what. Her ma wants her to not be with me, because I am not Muslim, and it’s not arranged. My girlfriend agrees with her…after all that we promised each other and all that we’ve shared…I told her that I’d rather her marry someone she loves and have her ma hate her for a few months, than to see her marry some cruel husband just to see her ma’s reputation increase. I am willing to wait as long as it takes until I am allowed to marry her.

What should I do? I can’t send her anything for fear of her mother reading, I can’t call, for fear of her mother answering it, I can’t even e-mail her, for fear that her mother will demand to see it.

Please help…