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a couple of years.I didn't really have a sexually active mind at nine and ten but when eleven hit!Wow!I started thinking about any kind of sex and by the time of twelve,it got a lot worse.I think the first time I had watched porn was when I was probably around seven or eight or maybe a little bit older.Then when I was about twelve or thirteen,I started watching it more and reading incest stories and also rape stories.I don't know if I was molested when I was a litte girl.I even remember trying to make my barbie dolls have sex.I used to have thoughts about being raped.I do however remember when I was about five or six,I distinctly remember on Christmas night,I had a rash down there and my mom of course had to put the ointment on down there.So when she did I all of a sudden said "I hope someone touches me right there one day." She just looked at me and told me not to say that. I am 13 and I am a girl,and unfortunately,I am wondering if I was molested. And my psychiatrist diagnosed me with OCD but it's not a severe case.But when I was little,about 4 or 5,it was thunderstorming,and as a little girl as I was,I was frightened to death of thunderstorms and I still am at age 13.And my dad had came over.And every time he comes over,him and my mom,well...let's not go there.But I remember going into their room with them and it was dark and I remember trying to get away and something grabbing my leg. I still wonder if it was a dream but it is ironic how after it,I became very sexualized a year later.I'm a very sexual kid but the thing is that I haven't had sex unless I was raped when I was little.I am practicing abstienecne and a lot of people think that people who think of sex constantly like I do would be sexualy active but I am not at all.104% not. Do you want to know all of the things that I have thought about in the last couple of years? At six,it was my gym teacher,I had a huge crush on him.I would think of him kissing me to dragging me on the floor naked or abusing me sexually,the only thing that I did not think of was him having intercouse with me. At seven it was still the same thing and eight too. At nine,I kind of got over the crush because I found a little boy that was my age that I liked.And even then,I didn't think of sex too much but I did think of having sex with him. The same thing happened at ten. At eleven,the whole thing got worse.I mean WORSE. There was this boy that I liked at middle school and I started thinking of sex with him too.An dI finally got over him and then I started imagining what my marriage would be like.Pure sex. I know or sure that my marriage qill be more than sex but for the time,I think about sex a lot.Eveyr single day.There isn't 1,not 1 day that goes by that I don't think of it and now it is to the point where I imagine that I am married to a guy named Eric and that we have three kids name Riley,Aurora,and Nicolette.And I imagine me and him doing hardcore sex,to romantic sex,to bondage sex,to anal sex,to vaginal sex.I don't imagine threesomes or orgy sex simply because if I get married,I don't want different people trying to have sex with us. I know more things that what my parents know about sex,I could tell them things about it.I could probably even tell you things about it.lol. I watched porn at a young age.I would give an estimate at about nine or ten maybe eleven.But now I have a computer so I Can watch it a lot and read porn stories which I do.I used to watch it on tv.I would stay up until 3 or 4 in the morning watching it. And a lot of people would think that I am sexually active because of this,but I am 104% not.I am being abstienent.Unless I was raped then I am still a virgin because I haven't had sex.But rape and molestation are different. I remember trying to make my dolls have sex ad the weird thing is that when I got a tad bit older,I even made one of the dolls sexually abuse the other and physically abuse it.On Christmas,I told my mom,while she was rubbing ointment down there because I was too little to do it myself,but I told her,distinctly that I hoped someone would touch me there someday.I know that kids shouldn't say things like that.I practically have a porn addiction at 13.I watch it,I read it and the weird thing is that I am not afraid to admit it which could either work in my favor or not. Do you think that I was molested when I was young?