Should I just give up?...

I’ve been talking to a guy, for over a year now. starting Jan, 16 2008. I’ve known him for over 3 years. Im a photographer for his band for those 3 years since they started. Just a year ago at a show they had, I noticed he wasnt himself and we started talking. hes the guitarist for the band Volatile (www.myspace.com/volatileband) everyday we have been talking on the phone. litteraly we talk… EVERYDAY!!!… his family knows me and invites me to family things, so does my family. even people at my school ask if we re going out yet… im 18 years old, and hes 21. hes my best friend and he knows everything about me. and I think I know everything about him. at least I think. haha im in love with him but dont know what to do. usually I would have given up the first month. but theres something about him that makes me love him so much. he doesnt know I love him. but he does know I like him a lot. his best friend one day at a show they had at a bar, took me to the side before we were going to leave (and the guy I like in the car) he told me that he wants to ask me out and that he does like me, but he doesnt want to do it because im his only girl friend. I felt like crap but glad I know something. his friend told me not to give up cause one day he might ask me out. but I dont know if I can wait anymore. it hurts a lot… what should I do? should I give up? should I be the one to ask him out? because im way to shy to do that and so is he. his own sister is trying to hook us up. and his mom. they made me help them with his surprise birthday party.

but the thing is. when im with him, I feel like hes the one. I have four other guys that keep asking me out but I put them down and tell them no. I feel really bad about it. but this guy I like//love is the only one I think about. I worry about him every second of the day. we have kissed before. he makes me melt and feel comfortable and safe… I wish sometmes when im with me, he would drive me away and take me away from my home… he made me believe in god again. when its been 6 years I hated god since my grandpa passed away… but now I want to go to church. were both Catholics and he believes in god. hes made me a better person and I wish I could tell him everything in my heart.

what should I do? I cry sometimes because I think, “what if I lost him?” “what if I never see him again?”

I don’t know. I dont want to be possesive… cause even that scares the hell out of me.

please help me. I would give anything to just believe in telling him the truth. but I just dont know how… help???