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What do I do after losing my Grandpa?

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my grandad died yesterday. just typing that I start crying.. jesus. I miss him so much, and havent stopped crying since he was the most amazing man, always so kind and made jokes when he was in hospital, spent allot of time there but died at home . he had cancer in about every part of his body.

I saw him yesterday after school straight away with my mum,dad,and sister. he looked awful. my sister ran out crying just after she saw him. he couldnt open his eyes, surving off an oxygen machine. I held his hand and kissed his cheek, and my nan kept telling him "its alix, alix is here for you" and I saw a little smile appear. it made me cry.

my sister is one of them that crys, and talks about her feelings quite openly with people she loves. I dont talk aboutthem with anyone. not my family, CLOSEST friends, anyone. I just write them down. I havent cried in front of anyone (apart from going into school today, I hugged my bestestest friend.) and I'm scared they think I don't care he's gone.. or he didnt really mean anything to me. but I havent STOPPED crying or thinking about him. I feel so bad about not showing any emotion.. but I dont like to. what should I do?

RIP Grandad. I love you xx