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*Please do not issue about the title and my story: It's a real experience I had this week and it most certain does not mock God

it's a very delicate thing to ask.. my girlfriend is probably one of the most faithful Christian I know and im really glad she is Christian because im also a Christian I know when people say "You must believe in God or your soul would be judge," I really pay attention and honestly respect them. But frequently, I believe I have been cursed..(please dont mock) my girlfriend and her family is a leading Christian and she is devoted.. She goes to night sactuary almost five times every week and always have to be home before 7.. I don't know what to do.. she says she has changed herself to me, but she's not willing to give up a little more time from the Christian ceremony.. I attend different church with different rules and time and I always wait for her to finish, but she is unable to come out after .. so there's only a time for say "good night" and that's it...

For all heavily Religious people it's very praiseworthy, but recently I think of it as a curse .. and if this some sort of way for God to test me.. it's more of a weekly exam for me ... I can't defile God's will, but I can't help not to get frustrated..

My girlfriend said she is trying to make her time with me between her studies and church time.. and she even gave up hanging around with her friends just to see me..

I know im being selfish and not understanding, but I always make time between my studies, church, and work.. and I too gave up my friends' trust and time to be with her... I even disregarded my family's resentful thought about our relationship.. I also thought that I was giving her a change in her life..

But if my change does more harm than good. and if her life is ruined by what I want with her and destroys her moral image.. im willing to hold my love for her and let her go.. ++ Im not trying to buy any biased statement.. this is my thought and how I felt

Even thinking about this just pains me .. and I love her so much.. I wish only for her safety and health. However, I just can't help feeling that she doesn't see me better. I know nothing can't replace God. I know she was raised in a Christian environment. I know she loves God... But What About Me??? It feels like I don't have a choice but to wait. And I wait for 4 hours doing nothing but only hopes that she will at least call me and hear her voice. But she only texts me a good night without any reply... It hurts.. and it hurts even more to think it again..but it also hurts her that I can't understand what she's going through. But at a time like this.. what am I suppose to think... because of her activities and her service... I only meet her once and maybe twice if lucky.. and we only can hang out 2 hours top..

I feel like screaming.. I feel like crying.. I feel like scratching myself to feel better..but what I want the most is for her to comfort me right now ..

Please.. give me advice what to do..