Relationsip Trouble to Guilt Trouble-Story & Question

During my middle school years, I only had a few friends; out of these few friends were by Best Friends. I had a boy whom I was good friends with, and I had my usual gang I hung out with that I loved to be with every moment of my life. Now, me and this boy-friend I had had been friends since the third grade, and I’m guessing my heart had grown weak over the years to where I had not even known that I could had possibly loved him.The peers, at both my elementary and middle school would tease he and I because we would always play together, and I’d always hit him and fool around with him and we’d both end up into petty trouble. Yet, during middle school, I began to not only be the one ‘hitting on’ him, my best girl-friend began to play along as well. Being that her small body figure, her high tiny voice, and splendid gentle heart, I had no way of competing against my friend. So, I found my way in and bugged him enough to truthfully admitting he liked my girl-friend. I told her, and she wasn’t too happy seeing as to who he was. After the secret was revealed, later on within the weeks, he began to stare and maybe even stalk my friend. She would wear the school skirts and knee high white socks her mother picked out for her and during school, he couldn’t stop drooling all over the floor during class. Me and my girl-friends had enough, and we got together and I decided to write to him how I felt about the sudden ‘crush’, and how uncomfortable my friend felt. The letter was an entire front-to-back side paper written. The next day after the day I had given him the letter, I can swear to god, we both could not look into eachothers eyes, and there was this feeling in my stomach when around him, churning and very unwanted feeling, in the depth of my stomach from then on. Now that we inevitably attend the same High School together, and the feeling is over…I would like to know whether or not it was all worth it? In the end, was all that…worth the feeling, the guilt and the truthful crying at night? I feel bad though, that my friend believes it to be her total fault to causing everything thats happened, and I hate the fact that she is putting the guilt upon herself, when I could had easily talked to him face to face and get everything settled out…was it all worth it?