One sided love

Ok well me and my x broke up like 3 months ago I didn’t want to but it was his choice and he said we could be friends and that it was just for a lil while well like 3 weeks or so ago he got mad at me for some weird reason and then stopped talking to me then I wrote him a massage I told him if he never wanted to speak to me again to just delete me off his messenger’s and sure enough he did I started balling my eyes out knowing he was never going to speak to me again and I would be losing the love of my life I haven’t talked with him sense and I miss him very much he was every thing I was looking for and more he was amazing and the funny thing is is that at first I just liked him as a friend nothing else I wanted to dump him but I couldn’t at first but then I did and when I did I noticed it was crazy for me to have done that he was amazing he was the man of my dreams so we went back out and then he left me :( but he could all ways make me smile and he had the most amazing smile voice and eyes and it,s driving me crazy cause other then the eyes he look’s pretty much just like cappie on greek he has the sense of humor of cappie all so and when ever I see greek or when ever I here my x,s name I just start getting all teary eyed which I never do unless I am very hurt or if some one else is hurt I want him back but I know that’s most likely not a choice I try not to think about him but every time I try not to I find my self thinking about him even more I don’t know what to do no matter what I will love him I can’t help it hes just amazing and I love/loved him my love for him kinda reminds me of the note book I have watched that movie like 4 times just this week