Do I try to move on or get her back?

ermm this is the first thing I’ve asked on this so sorry if it dont make sense

I used to be friends with this girl and all of a sudden I realised I liked her a bit more than I was suppose to and then suddenly I felt even stronger about her I mean at the time I was trying to get a relationship with this other girl and my friend would tell me like go talk to her that what all us girls want for you to not be perverted and to talk to us instead and well I kinda realised it was my friend I liked not the other girl.

I decided to tell her how I felt cuase I thought thats what its like in the moives(I find a problem I have is I try to make stuff like the moives to much)but she didnt feel the same way I know now that she thought of me as just a friend she couldnt ever go out with me

then this guy came from america and my friend and him feel in love ,,,it broke my heart especialy since she feel for him straight away and I introduced them ,,,but I was still friends with her and I tried being friendly with the american guy.

well about a mounth or two after he left my friend started liking me I dont know why and we had this dare thing going on where we tried to see which one of us would kiss the other one first you no just for a joke well I kissed her first .then it stopped but I found out that she was planning on kissing me so she could find out how she really felt and stuff…ermm I told her I knew and she ran of embarrased but I told her it was ok and kissed her again just like a peck on the lips .

we ended up making out after a long time of me kissing her randomly and she told me recently thats when she thinks she fell in love with me

we got together broke upa couple of times cuase somone would mention the american guy but wed get back together and we ended up even talking about like spending the rest of our lifes together,,mostly at first it was for fun but I got hinking about it seriously(stupid I should say)

shes slovakian and goes to a diffrent slovakia ever hoilday we get and she went this summer hoilday just gone and we were fine all the way though it we would say I miss you and I love you and nothing seemed wrong.

then she went to greece for 2 weeks before coming back and she met this guy there

he was called ian he was dutch and 16 ,, my girl had known him one day and they were on the beach and she got upset “apparently” basicaly they ended up making out …now I said it broke my heart when she feel for the yank but man this really tore me apart you got to realise im not the kinda guy who lets emtions like sadness and fear though very easily I try to not get upset about anything…I spent 2 days fighting back tears…and then broke down had a big fight with my brother becuase of which I know am on police record as having a history of violence ..and then finaly cracked and broke down into tears .

my girl friend dumped me the day befor she told me this (I found out shed acctuly done it 4 days before she dumped me) her excuse was it was really romantic

now I had done somthing simalar though but only told her when she told me ,, I however had gone out with peopl I thought I could trust and got so pissed on whisky and neat vodak that apparently I should have died .and then a girl I was with started kissing me and said oh your in love with (my friends name) and I said yeh im also pissed out of why face so dont take advantage and fell down the hill I was on .

now I said im sorry to my girl and told her what I told you guys now

the reason my q is so drawn out is becuase I want you to understand whats happend between us and I want you to realise that yes im 14 years old and yeh im a guy but before I feel for this girl I was a big time goth and thought of by most people as genuinly evil and demonic

after I became the typical nice guy I changed completly I loved her that much she is my all and everything I dont care if im too young to fall in love in anyones eyes I know how I feel and I dont think ill ever stop feeling like this about her id do anything for her

now were still friends but things are diffrent I mean we spend nearly as much time together but its still diffrent

what should I do do I try to move on do I try to get her back do I tell her how I really feel again do I carry on what im doing and hope that everything will be just peechy in the end