My father died. And I need help to get over my regret

3 years ago my dad died and we werent that close becucause he was a big truck driver and gone all the time and when I was 2 they split up its been hard these past few years and everytime I cry over the same thang regret I never treated him like I was suppose to I remember when my mom told me for sum reason I made my self cry ?? And I dont no why I did luv my dad I guess I was shocked and didnt no what to do but anyway like I was saying everytime I was with him I would fake a smile ? I really just dont understand why tho ? … But I did have a good week with him before he died I spent the whole week with him and it was real and I didnt fake my smile or anythang but like I said he was a big truck driver and I remember it was late and he laft on the big druck and I remember me giving him 2 hugs and I watched him walk onto the big truck and for sum reason I cried knowing sumthang was going to happen and me being selfish I didnt call him for 4 days then I found out he was dead . But I just need help to get over my regret I do miss him and I cry about that 2 but I knoe hes with god fishing and hunting in heaven and I know one day hell meet me at the gates of heaven . And out of coureousity did anyone knoe my dad hes name was robert alan stanley , but they usally called him alan ? And his name on that thang walkie talkie type thang on the big truck was buck shot ??? Anyone thnks Krystal

Answer #1

Dear Fau,

I am thirty years old and my dad died three years ago. My parents split up when I was in first grade, and even though I got to see him and hang out with him for a few years, he disappeared and got remarried and had another baby with another woman when I was a teenager. I didn’t see him or talk to him for years and I told myself I hated him for so long that I actually believed it myself. Then he got very sick and called me to tell me that he wanted to see me before he died. I went and hung out with him for about a week, and supressed all my anger towards him because I knew he was dying. After he died, I felt sad, but ok for about two years. I think my feelings of confusion overshadowed my sadness and anger and guilt because confusion and shock does that.

Now, three years later, I feel like a total mess, because I regret never having confronted him about totally abandoning his family and starting a new one up. I never got the answers to the questions I had been wondering about my whole entire life. I feel guilty for still being angry because he’s gone now, and I want to just let him rest in peace so that I can feel at peace myself. So that’s why I say I’m a mess. Because I feel sad, angry, and guilty all at once. Ugh!

I think the best thing you can do to deal with your regret is talk to your dad, even though he’s in heaven now, as you said. You are right when you say that he’ll meet you at the gates. In fact, I think he’s with you all the time, in some form. So talk to him, in your mind, or out loud before bed. Write letters to him, and either keep them or rip them up. Whatever you feel like, because there is no rule for this kind of thing. If I were you, I’d tell him about all the feelings you are experiencing. I’d tell him how sorry you feel for “fake smiling” and all of that, but I’d also tell him that you’ve forgiven yourself, because you had to do so in order to put your mind at ease. Tell him how much you miss him, and tell him how proud you are of yourself for being able to deal with such a tough situation. It’s ok to cry about it, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Every time you cry, you get a little bit of that sadness out. Every time you talk or write to him, you get even more out. In time, you won’t have any more tears left to cry, and you won’t have anything more left to say about the guilt you feel. Because it will all be gone. This takes time.

I think I’ll do the same thing. Thanks for your post. It helped me figure out my own situation a little bit more. I wish you so much luck and happiness!

: )

Answer #2

after my dad died when I was 17 I had all these things I never said to him and I felt guilty because I didnt go see him for like 2 months before he died, because it was so hard to see him so sick. a therapist told me to write letters to my dad and read them out loud and then get rid of them, rip them up in tiny pieces and throw it up in the air or burn it. I chose to burn it, but in a safe place where I wouldn’t start any fires, and it actually makes me feel better. I do this with a lot of my emotions, I pray to my higher power, you could call it god, to take these bad feeling from me, so that I can live in happiness, then read the letters and burn them.

Answer #3

Ok it must be really hard but you need move on with your life. Your dad knows you loved him and still do. He is watching over you. He would definitly not want to see you crying I know its hard but just think. In time you will see him again. And all you have to do is think what if he saw me crying. Its hard but move on your dad loves you and you love him. Just try to move on, it will help in a long shot.

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