my ex-boyfriend... the prick

hi I dated my boyfriend for abotu 10 months… we were really serious! we had sex after 6 months and were addicted… but my parents andm why friedns didn;t like him because I was constantly with him! so after 10 months I dumped him. I thoguht single was great! because I still called him and he still called me and we still told eachother we loved eachtother. we were still basically together. he kept begging for me and I said no. but then he found someone else just 1 mont hand a half ago. he went to out formal with her and I was devistted. then they finally went out. I miss him so much. I sitll call him and beg for him back. he says I waited too long and he really likes her! I can;t stop thinkng about him. I miss him so much andi still love him! he says he still thinks of me! but mostly sexually… I see hm sometimes and we makeout and fool around. we decided were going to be secret fuck buddies. and otmorrow I’m goign to his house. I don;t abotu the sex and I know he does and that alll he wants! and I’m so much then that. but I keep thinkign that if he thinks abotu me even sexually and if he cheats on his girlfriend then how can he love her! but I know thta not right but I’m also hoping thta maybe when he sees me he’ll want me back, the way I want him! I love him …what should I do.. please help… its been a month since the’ve been together and I know everyone says it’ll take a lot longer but I can;t wait any longer.. I’m in so much pain! help me make itstop!