My boyfriend

ohhh my god, girl. lemme tell you! lol

I dated this guy carl, for like seven months. BEST seven months of my life, honestly. I absolutely despise when everyone’s throwen out I love you like it means nothing, but I LOVE him. we broke up 6 months ago and I am stilll not over him, I’ve cried at leasttt once a week since we broke up, believe that.

now, the only reason I told you that was so that you could see how much I really loved the guy, he wasn’t just a regular ole boyfriend that comes and goes.. so maybe it’ll help you take my advice and make it to where it better explains your situation

but our biggest problem, that we fought about every single time we talked, was that he wanted to have sex with me and I in no way did. I was the first girl he’d ever dated longer than a month, I was the first girl he’d fingered, first girl he’d eaten out. I gave him a handjob but we stopped at that always. and he only ate me out once and fingered me like.. a couuuple times.

I realized that it was really getting bad on our realtionship, and as much as I loved him and didnt want to lose him, I knew that if I gave that up I would nevvver forgive myself for that, ever. sometimes you just got to think what YOU want. it doesnt freaking matter what the hell he wants!! it’s what you want that should matter, over everything. never ever ever let him pressure you into ANYTHING, no matter how many times he tells you he could be dating other girls that are willing, and he gets offers all the time, and all this other bull he’s probly going to feed you.

but, if you find that it’s actually what you want. go for it!! by all means. just make sure you really do loveee him, without a doubt in your mind. and if you could pick one guy to spend the rest of your life with he’d be your first choice. and pleaseee, be smart about it. lol, dont have unprotected sex unless you actually want to have a kid. and remember that crap can go wrong even when you DO have protected sex, so just keep that in your mind and be smart.

sorry if I sound like a mother, lol. I’m actually just a sixteen year old girl. haha, almost seventeen… but still, lol.