long distant relationship!!! sex? yes? no?

my boyfriend lives far away and we dont see one another too often. when we do tho were crazy abt one another, cant keep our hands to ourselves. weve been going out for just over 4 years now and at 1st we did have sex. I was so naive and silly! I even told him to go ahead with no protection, practically forsed him! I was so sexually frustrated! but now when we see eachother its the other way round! its him that is more frustrated… I tell him we cant we cant and hes like okay so lets just touch eachother but you know how one thing leads to another. the reason why I dont want to is because what if the condom breaks or whatever. I mean im educated well enough I think in that department in the sense that I now the precautions one must take but still… I was thinking abt the little coil for your arm but its stupid and not worth it bcs we don’t even see eachother enough times for that… I would literally die if I got pregnant when after having sex what… once every 6months? last time I did it it was ummm wait I cant even remeber lol..

and im horny almost all the time!

so whats my question? yeah should I take the risk of just doing it when I see him or not? I get worried because falling pregnant would lead to so many consequences…

argh… seems like such an obvious answer but still a little iffy abt it..

be nice people I really do want sum genuine advice.. thanks xx