It's been over a year and I miss him

It’s been over a year, and I still miss you. all the chats and now the “remember whens…” I remember kissing the webcam for a few giggles. I remember sleeping at the keyboard to be there for you in the morning. I remember the brownies you made for school and tormented me with. and I remember watching the sun come up on your side of the world, 5 hours before it came to mine. I remember watching you play your drums, and even you put away laundry. I remember watching you play spider man three or reading a book. I remember you telling me I could have your shirt when you were done with school. and I still havent got it. You promised to write me a letter after band camp. in 9th grade… I still havent recieved it. I remember watching you eat your funky british potato chips on the couch while watching Hot Fuzz, and I even remember you telling me you would send me “Shaun of the dead” because they dont sell it here anymore.

I think I’m losing it… I miss him so much and I cant stop crying… I spent 8 months spending no less than 8 hours a day talking to him, and 23 hours at the most. I saw him so much. and I miss him… I need help, and someone to talk to…

please someone anyone ♥