I want to stop being an escort

I am an escort. And to be honest it has been ok untill the past month or so. I felt as if it was filling a void and it made me not only feel good about myself, But I made money and have been able to survive without stuggling at all. I have met some wonderful men also. Some have become more of friends then a business transaction. I have a child, who is a pre teen boy. And what scares me the most is that he will find out. If he finds out I would just die inside. He would loose all respect for me. I am a wonderfull mother to my son. I take care of him. I am home when he is home. I cook dinner every night and out him to bed, wake him up with breakfast, spend time with him. and I love him, he is my world. I have not let this make me less of a good parent. He will always come first. But I feel as if I am living a double life. My family thinks I have a great job, I have a heart of gold, I do not use drugs or any bad vices. I do all I can do for everyone. I have become addicted to this and I want to stop. I have felt like I am going at a rate that is scary. I do not even relax anymore. I am into this full fledge now and I feel as if I am loosing myself. I have been reading a lot about woman being murdered, rapes, robbing all this stuff and im getting scared. Now I know this is wrong. Well, to society its wrong. But in reality many woman do this, just not so openly. There are woman who marry or date for money. That to me, is like the same thing. Except I am paid for my companionship and there is no expectations. I dont know how to stop. I dont want to struggle with finances if I stop and I feel very confused. I have a best friend, that somehow has been my shining light my hapiness and He just recently found out what I am doing. I dont know how, He said he just felt it. I have been going through a emotional breakdown for 2 days and its killing me. I dont know if I should ease out of thius, If I should just stop. But I cant because I have no other income right now. Im scared and I feel alone.. I know many of you will judge me. But some may understand me. Thanks..